Dogs

Dogs truly are a man's (or women's) best friend. They're so amazing. I'm so grateful for my dogs, every day. I have an Australian Shepherd, Border Collie mix and her name is Izzie (yes, named after Izzie on Grey's Anatomy) and MY personal dog is my white Shiz-Tu and her name is Mary Jane. She's been my dog for the past 6 years, so she's a little bit older... But i can't even explain how much they mean to me. I love animals, so much. I've never quite been able to grasp the fact how someone so cruel could EVER ever abuse an animal, a dog to be specific. They're so easy to love.. I swear, some people are so heartless. My dog sleeps at the foot of my bed every single night, and whenever i'm not home, at a sleepover or something she still sleeps there. I love her a whole lot. 

Listening to records

Something I've started lately, is that I have been really into vinyl and listening to records lately mainly, when i go to bed. But it helps me sleep well, and i love listening to my dads vinyl collection and compare how much different it sounds to an I-pod or music we get over the internet. I like it so much more, i love the sound it makes and i just think its so incredible how it even works, you know? The grooves and indents on the vinyl create sound from motion and a needle? I just think that's awesome. My dad has such an amazing collection. The Beatles, Pink Floyd, Elton John, Jimmy Hendrix, Led Zeppelin, i mean... talk about a throwback! 

Your life is still waiting to be lived

As teenagers, when something bad happens we think that it's the worst thing in the entire world and we tend to exaggerate situations. We let the littlest things have such a big impact on our lives, and its not like its our fault. Its just natural, i assume. But when you feel small, just remember that there is still a world out there waiting for you. There IS life after high school, and people just need to realize that.. It breaks my heart to hear about the handful of suicides that have happened through out Utah County this year to so many beautiful people. I don't understand why its so hard for people to just be nice every once in a while and i don't understand why its so difficult for people to accept people for being different. Do you realize how PLAIN our world would be without color? Its the same with people, too. If everyone was the same - life would be so plain. And life isn't meant to be that way. Who's to say that tomorrow won't be the best day of your life? Someone out there is wondering what it'd be like to meet someone like you. There are so many opportunities just awaiting your arrival. High school isn't your life... High school is just a chapter of your life. I think people complicate that, often. Things that happen through these 4 years, won't matter in 10 years. 

You're all so awesome, don't ever forget what you're worth! 

 

What's past is past

I could write a variety of different things under this topic, honestly. Heartbreaks, old friends, childhood memories, that cat i got rid of because someone had an allergy, the music i used to listen to, going to the zoo for the first time, experiencing the ache of my first funeral, etc.

Literally, i could write about anything and I'm just not so sure. So maybe I'll just write about the past in general.

The situations, and moments you've encountered in your past have made you who you are at this very moment. I've been taken for granted in the past, so I've gained independence. I've made a handful of choices and i don't regret a single one. Every person who did me wrong, has just made me that much stronger in the present. Like for example- Swinging on the swings in elementary school helped me realize that the littlest things in life can make you feel invincible; even if it's for a short amount of time. High school overall has made me realize that the people who i was best friends with, and knew so well- those people change over time, everybody does. For better or for worse, people are going to change. And the only thing you can do is hold your ground, know where you've been in the past and accept the fact that everything happens for a reason. I find that I'm more mature than majority of the people i surround myself with and it's kind of a struggle. Things that have happened in the past, have helped me learn and to grow and to learn to accept the things i think i deserve. And the same goes for you, as well. You should want the best for yourself, and don't hold a grudge on yourself for past experiences. Higher your standards, and keep growing, keep learning. We all only have one life. (Our society has over used "YOLO" to an annoying large amount... hahahaha) 

not much better than good music

Honestly, not a lot of things are better than listening to good music that puts you in great moods. At least, not that i can think of. I love my taste in music, and i love it when people ask me some songs, and i show them some and they fall in LOVE with it. I love listening to songs that tell a story, and can provoke certain emotions so well! Almost always i can relate to them. Coachella, if you haven't heard of it is a HUGE concert where amazing bands come and perform, and its under the sun and everyone just has an amazing time. This year, SO many amazing bands are playing and I'm sad that i can't get tickets, but even i could- It's in California and i highly doubt my parents would be letting me go. (: Even though i know its gonna be amazing. I'm gonna take a road trip with my friends in 2 years, and we'll be going for SURE. I really hope the line-up is good that year. What kind of music do you guys like? Any favorite artists or favorite songs you want to suggest? I'm always up for listening to new music! (:

Short Scene

"After graduation, I'm gone. I'm leaving this place.. It's washed up and I can't take it anymore." I said, nervous of what my best friend Harlee was going to say in return.

"I think that's amazing. I'm just concerned on how safe that is.. i mean. Africa?!"

"My father's house down there is amazing, and Har this isn't about me entirely.. Its about me making a change."

"Well I'm impressed by you, Savvy.  I know i wouldn't dare take a risk like that. I'm going to miss you more than anything, and i better be getting letters and pictures every week!"  Harlee says, leaning in to hug me.

A hug, that's exactly what i needed. We've been best friends since middle school when we just had too many things in common during our art class. I was caught up in the popularity contest, and had intentions that i was the best of the best. Naturally, i guess i blame my mother. She had wanted that for me, and I didn't know anything but being that. When my father went away, my whole world flipped upside down. It wasn't like he "left" us... He needed to flee his home, leave this place, find himself, and make a change in the world. I just wish it wouldn't have taken me so long to understand that. Now, all i can think about is doing the same thing.

The bell rings and me and Harlee grab our bags and head towards my car.

" Suns out and the palm tree leafs aren't moving, har. You know what that means!"  I say, with more excitement than usual.

" BEACH DAY!!!" She yells as she opens the passenger side door and quickly grabs the AUX cord connected too my stereo, and turns on our favorite beach playlist. Our favorite song, Boyfriend by Best Coast comes on and we roll down all the windows, and sunroof too. Best Coast was our absolute favorite band, the lead singer Bethany Cosentino is from a town 30 minutes south of our own.

These moments, are what I'm going to miss. But i can't think about that right now, can't let it get in the way of the moments ahead of us.

We sing the lyrics obnoxiously with laughs and funny facials, and at the stop light two adorable boys wink and wave at us and all we can do is turn to each other and laugh.

Character

My marvelous main character's name is Savannah. She's 17, and is brave and deep in wanderlust. She has long dirty blonde hair and is a little higher than the average height. She lives on the west coast, and loves it there but it has worn on her- being her only home since she could remember. Her weakness is that she always puts other people's happiness before her own, and it causes some loss of friends and feuds when she finally decides to change that. Her pet peeves are stuck up people (who doesn't have that pet peeve, honestly.) and a couple others. She's a fairly accepting person, and seeks adventure more than often. Her parents are divorced and for the past 6 years her father has been living in Africa making a change out there, with her aunt and a couple of his friends. He recently passed away and that has a huge impact on Savannah, because her father was her idol and shes determined to travel to Africa and finish the change that he started and continue helping the less fortunate and exploring the world. Everyone is so caught up in reality around her, that shes desperate for a change and to flee away from her home to find herself and her sole purpose in life. She has a rather selfish mother, and an alright stepfather, along with his daughter who is 11 years old. Once she has her mind completely set on a goal, she'll get there no matter how much she has to sacrifice and no obstacle along the way can stop her anyhow.