--Embarrassment--

This one is so recently that it just makes me sick to my stomach thinking about how embarrassing it was... Goodness Gracious. 

So it was only a couple weekends ago, and me and a couple of my friends (Including my boyfriend) all went swimming at about 8:30 at the Saratoga Springs clubhouse hot springs pool. Well... It was so freezing outside but thank GOODNESS the pools were heated. Anyways, so we were all there having a great time swimming and what not, splashing around, laughing, etc. Towards the end, we all decided to get into the hot tub! And we were there for a little while, but then my parents arrived to pick me up.. So as I'm getting out of the hot tub, it's still snowing and it has been snowing for about an hour or so, so the concrete that the chairs with all of our things are on, is frozen. So I'm freezing cold and I'm running to the chair to grab my towel and my clothes and i FALL. Straight on my butt, and i fell pretty hard. And my boyfriend was right behind me, and he helped me up but i was sooo embarrassed.. I just wanted to cry. It was so awkward and it was freezing and it hurt. So, it was absolutely horrible. I wish i would've just calmly walked to the chair to grab my things... I'll probably remember that embarrassment forever, ugh. (:

F E A R

Of course I have regular fears... Spiders, Clowns, People on stilts (Oookay, so maybe that last one isn't very regular but I'm totally terrified of them.) 

But all in all, My biggest fear is not being successful. Most definitely not being successful after i graduate high school. I look around at all of these girls who on those tacky "All About Me" papers in school, when it asks what they want to be when they grow up they fill in - "To be a great wife and mother." Why? I mean, kudos for you for wanting to be a great mother and wife, but isn't there so many things to do before you settle down like that? I'm not saying I'm against any of this, but personally I'm scared of not getting remembered as well. I want to do REMARKABLE things in my lifetime, and then think about settling down. Why jump headfirst into marriage? I want to travel the world, and go to college, and experience so many things before settling down even crosses my mind. I want to travel, and i want to do things that will change lives. I'm scared of not being successful, and success is all i aim for, everyday. I'm a competitive person, and i despise failure. So, if this offended any of you in any possible way-- I apologize. All in all, I fear not being successful and not being remembered, along with Spiders, Clowns, and People on Stilts. (: 

C O U R A G E

We all encounter acts of courage through out our lives from when we were young, without even considering it as courageous. 
Honestly, think about it.. Learning to ride a bike, swimming for the first time in a pool, experiencing the spark of your very first kiss, the first time you fly on an airplane, etc. Those are all acts of courage. Being courageous doesn't always mean you have to climb the highest mountain, or go skydiving - courage can be simple, yet it can also be complex. Everyone has a bit of courage in their veins and without courage a lot of amazing moments would be missed and living a live without courage is a horrible way to live day by day. Decisions make up a part of who we are, and without courageous decisions being made, life would be dull and plain. 

"He who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life." - Muhammad Ali

Poem that matters

Ocean is as one with the world

Izabelle Sheridan

As I Stare out into the Sea,
I can feel the soft oceans breeze
the warmth from the sun
the grass dances with the whistling wind
the ocean is filled with thoughts
and mysteries,
I feel the cool water
the ocean is alive filled with lost souls
washing emotions up onto the shore
My feet sink in the softness of the sand
The ocean is made up of dreams
and achievements,
My mind lies in the heart of the ocean
The rocks are bones
Out in the open the waves settle and
wait for their attack,
I feel as one with the ocean
as the ocean feels like one
with the world.


- This poem reminds me so much of my experience with the ocean. I can just visualize my feet sinking into the sand, and the tide rolling ashore once again. This is an absolutely beautiful piece and its much more then just the ocean, and has an incredible meaning to it.

I n t r o d u c t i o n

I like to think of myself as anything but basic. I like to think of myself as extraordinary, actually. But doesn't everyone? 

The atmosphere we're all surrounded by is hard, yet i like to believe that i try to make it easier for everyone around me. 
I look forward everyday to moving away from here, and starting my life. I fell in love with the ocean, no short of 8 years old. And i look forward to nothing more, then spending the rest of my life around it after i graduate. Everyone has a story, everyone has a side to them that no one else knows. But mine, isn't very obscure. I'm a rather simple girl, living a great life. I love to listen to people, and i enjoy reading good books-yet i love to party and have a good time. I love to inspire people with my perspectives and opinions. I'm absolutely in love with fashion, and i escape a lot of things by writing, even something as little as a diary. I find no interest in fantasy books, and i rather despise them. There's a lot more to me, buuut.. i don't want to bore you to death. Thanks for taking the time to read this. xo